Let's start over in a coastal city.

Dear Friend,

Well, he doesn't like me. Oh wells. I'm pretty bummed, and really sad. But it's whatevers. I need to focus on school anyways.

It's been harder and harder to do simple tasks lately, like eat, do homework, or smile. I'm not sure what's wrong. I think it's time to make another Shreveport visit. Ugh. I hate doctor appointments.

Sometimes I want to give up. Not like die or anything though. Just take a break from living. Its hard work to live sometimes. I know that sounds weird. I guess it's one of those things that you only get unless you've experienced it.

I've got so many great things coming up soon - like my birthday party, and speech tournament - but I can't look forward to them. I'm using too much energy to get through the present.

In the car on the way home from speech practice today, K-LOVE radio was on (a Christian radio station) and I wanted to believe in Jesus again. I just can't. I refuse. I'm not trying to be rebellious, I just can't pretend to believe something as serious as this. I don't want to believe something just because my community does - I want to believe it because it's true. And I just don't agree with all of the things that the Christian faith believes. I hold absolutely nothing against Christians - I just don't think that the Christian faith is right for me.

Well, that's enough of my rambling.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara