GAH!

Dear Friend,

Yes, yes, I know, I know... I haven't blogged in forevers. I apologize.

Well, this weekend has sucked toenails. There's the deal: My closest guy friend EVER likes me. And I only like him as a friend. He's liked me like all year, and I'm very very VERY sorry to say that I have unintentionally led him on. I feel horrible. And now he's ignoring me. We haven't actually talked about him liking me or anything, but he had a conversation with my bffer and she told him that I didn't like him (without my consent, might I add). So now I'm really really REALLY stressed out. The End.

Thanks for reading.
Love always,
Sara

Failure.

Dear Friend,

Well, I tried. And failed. I went to school up till first lunch shift. Then I went home. I'm still not as well as I could be.

I don't like how my whole life is affected by a chemical imbalance. But whatevers. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, right?

Motown isn't helping as much today. What would help is my little sister, but she's at school. I try so hard to be the best person I can be for a couple reasons, but the main one is so my little sister has an ok role model. I never want to let her down. She is the reason I'm who I am today. Heck, she's the reason I'm alive. I know that sounds uber emo and junk, and yes, I know that I shouldn't live for anyone but myself. Whoever said that you should only live for yourself has obviously never been uber depressed.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

Happiness = Motown.

Dear Friend,

Motown is offically my happy music. I was a bit sad when I came home from school, and I decided to change my mood by listening to cheerful music. So thanks to The Tempations, Jackson 5, and my little sister, I am feeling better.

I've decided to not write about sad things in this entry. The world is full enough of sad things, and I'm not in the mood to contribute tonight.

For Mardi Gras break, my father and I are going to Disney World! I'm very excited. We will have 4 full days in Disney World, and 2 travel days. I can't wait. I went last year and had a blast.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

Who Dat?!

Dear Friend,

That has got to be the most uninspiring phrase I have heard in a long time. I am not prone to support a team that can't spell correctly. Yes, yes, I realize that "Who Dat" is in a New Orleans dialect. I just wish that the Saint's motto was a little more relevant to the team and used proper English. But whatever works. I am pleased that my home state is receiving positive media, and if it takes misspelling "that" to receive it, I'm all for it.

I have never been a fan of the Super Bowl. Sure, I love the commercials, the nachos my dad makes, and the half-time show, but I can't stand football. It frustrates me how the football players get paid, (According to the NFL Players Association, this year the lowest paid players will make about 99-34 million, with the average at about 1.1 million. - source: wikianswers) while public school teachers make little to nothing. (Average Teacher Salary: $47,602 - source: www.teacher-world.com)

This example of sports being more important than education, clearly shows that America's priorities are not in order, in my opinion. I'm sure that playing football is a beloved pastime of many Americans, but is this sport more valuable than an education?

Pros of being a football player:
- oodles of money
- fame
- getting to play football as a living.

Pros of getting an education:
- more opportunities become available, whether it be occupations, business opportunities, etc.
- while football players can only play football for so long, due to injuries, aging, etc., intelligence gained from education never "retires". (Unless you get dementia. And that can't be predicted or controlled.)

So, there you have it dear reader - my opinion on football. My opinion isn't going to change how the American people think, or act, or how much my teachers will get paid. After all, America is a free nation; free to think, free to speak, free to act, and free to make mistakes.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

TWINS!

Dear Friend,

So, my most recent ex-boyfriend just showed up at my house, unannounced, and asked for his necklace back. We haven't spoken in a long time, and it ratteled me. At first, I was angry. Then I was sad. Now, I'm tired.

I think we could be ok friends, but nothing more because:

1. He lives in Jena. I don't do "long distance".
2. RESPECT is vital in relationships. He didn't respect me very much when we were dating.
3. We have nothing in common.
4. Our morals/values don't really match up.
5. He's not the sharpest crayon in the box.

On a happier note, my friend that I met in Lafyette, on a speech tournament , and I are TWINS! We both want to be Philosophy Professors when we grow up! How neato is that?!

Well, I've been thinking about napping for about an hour now, and I think I will do such at this time.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

Friends.

Dear Friend,

Well, I took a "risk" and it paid off. I imed my friend I met at a speech/debate tournament, and we are totatlly twins! (We both want to be philosophy professors when we grow up.) It's great to have good friends, like I do.

So, I'm getting a haircut tomorrow. I love haircuts. I try to get a little bit different style everytime I go. After all, if I don't like it, it'll grow back.

Sorry for the boring update, not too much has been going on.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

thoughts.

Dear Friend,

Today isn't a great day, health wise, at my house. Mother has a hurt hip, Sister almost passed out and has a horrible cold, and I'm a bit yucky due to the med change. Dad's the lucky one - he gets to take care of all of us!

It's been raining since about 3 in the morning. Everything looks flooded. It's a good day to take a nap.

I've been a little bit lonely lately. I guess that's because I haven't been going to school regularly.

Sometimes I wish I had a more dominant personality. I am kind, and smart, and I listen well. I think I'm a good person to be friends with. I guess that when I dont' talk that much (which can be normal at school), people could think that I'm not friendly. And I could see how they could think that.

It can be frusterating how I put so much energy into a friendship, or relationship and things don't work out. I mean, I guess that's life. I've done all that I can do, and it's up to them to pull their weight for the friendship. If they don't want to be friends, then it's their loss.

It's so easy to say things like that. It's so much harder to believe them. Maybe if I keep saying them, over and over, I'll eventually believe it.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

Ugh.

Dear Friend,

Yesterday was another Shreveport visit. My meds have been changed, yet again, and I feel horrible. Stupid side effects.

There's not too much in this world that is as comforting as my New Leaf sweatpants. At boarding school, the weekends were not always the best, due to all of the work I had to do when I was grounded. However, I could wear my sweatpants on the weekends. That made the days a little more bearable.

At New Leaf, there were 3 different levels: sun, moon, and star. I was on the sun level for my entire stay there: 9 months. When a girl reached moon, she could petition to be able to wear jeans, multi-colored shirts, and wear a little bit of makeup.

I don't understand how jeans, and shirts with writing on them, interfere with one's emotional growth. But what do I know?

Well, I could blog all day, but I am feeling rather ill at the moment. I'll probably post again later today.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

i'm either insane or a GENIUS!

Dear Friend,

-I think I'm having a stroke!
-What?!
-Of GENIUS!!!

This quote from The Producers pretty much sums up how smart I feel now!

Ok, here's my idea:
I had 2 different tabs (chords); one for Paparazzi by Lady Gaga, the other for Poker Face by Lady Gaga. They were in 2 different keys, so I changed both of their keys into one good for me. Then, I made a medley type thing with the two pieces. Next, I will either force my sister to sing, or find someone else to learn the music, and practice with them until it is perfect! Then, choreograph some insanely Gaga dance moves. Finally, find some shoulder pads and wigs and outfits with lots of sequins.

Now, why would I do all of this?? For the PHS TALENT SHOW!!!

I am so excited!

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara

VICTORY!

Dear Friend,

Today I went to school! I'm very proud of myself. I've got a bunch of schoolwork to do, but it'll get done.

On a totally separate topic, I've decided that I want to be a philosopher when I grow up. I have come to the conclusion that the reason I enjoy Literature is because of the ideas expressed in the text, not the actual text itself. Therefore, becoming an English Professor might not be the best profession for me. But things can (and probably will) change.

Also, I am currently agnostic. This saddens me greatly. I just can't call myself a Christian when I cannot uphold their beliefs. I'm not even sure I want to uphold the beliefs. I have a lot of questions about God. Like, why do terrible things happen such as the Holocaust, if God is supposed to be merciful and loving? What happens to the people who haven't heard about Christ due to illiteracy or a language barrier? Do they go to Hell?

Just some food for thought.

Thanks for reading.

Love always,
Sara